Running After God

It was a cold apple crisp morning, the dark fogged skies blossoming open every hour. My best friend and I threw all of my bags in her little lightning bolted car and we drove into the sunrise. The whole time we were driving, the state of my chest was tight, I could barely think, let alone breathe. “Lord, is this what you have really called me to do?” We had just passed the “Welcome To Montana” sign when all of a sudden– the darkness around me turned to lush green and gold dipped trees waving and gliding with the wave and motion with every step closer I got to Lakeside.

It had been a little over two months since I had finished my DTS in Lakeside. It was a time spent with spring air, sunshine beauty, lilac growth, and dandelion aches. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced that much growth before—it was like a jasmine tea pearl expanding in a teacup. A phenomenon of floral fragrance and sweetness. Something that was so explosive but slowly faded away after every extravagant sip. During the two months spent apart from Montana I continued to repeat the words of Oscar Wilde—

“Some things are more precious because they don’t last long.”

It is those moments when you are infinite— you spend the nights with the hearts that you love, run wild and free, dance until your glass slipper is misplaced. You gaze at the stars under red street lights and hold your breath until a car comes—then you finally wake up from months of wonderland and think, curiouser and curiouser, “Was that all a dream?”

Being back home was an icy slap in the face
compared to the dream I had been living.

“Home” was no longer “Home”. I wasn’t where I belonged. I knew I was called to Montana. I prayed every day for direction and doors to open— but it was the three simple and gentle words that my Mighty King said that confirmed the plans in my heart. “Work”, “Serve”, and “Go”. I had consistently and fervently prayed about what God had been speaking to me about. I wanted to be an intern at YWAM Montana Lakeside and now I was on the sweet mustard-dipped winding journey back to Montana.

Here I am

The gates are open wide and the huckleberry air always brings me right on in with a warm welcome. I am living in a strawberry jam cram dorm with an awesome roommate. I am spending full days as project staff in the Creative Media Department creating video promos all day long. I am serving a church I have wanted to serve at for years. The road has been hard, it has been long, but I am finally here. I am continuously pushing through and trusting in the Lord with all of my heart. I am taking baby steps toward the bigger picture. I am going after my dreams. I believe that God has placed a huge calling on my life for the creative arts and I’m going to follow him with everything I’ve got. Even when I can’t see what is ahead. All I’m doing is trustingly running blind and listening to His sweet honeysuckle voice.

You can do anything God has called you to.

Habakkuk 3:17-19 // Acts 20:23-24 // 1 Corinthians 9:23-25 // 2 Timothy 4:7 // Hebrews 12:1-3

If there is any nugget of wisdom I could give, it would be to get up off of your feet. Take off your shoes and socks to run at the speed of light. Stretch and work your unused muscles. Pursue the desires that God Himself has placed in your heart. Seek what is good. What is right. What is pure. GO. And don’t look back. Everyone runs; one wins. Run to win. All good athletes train hard. They do it for a gold medal that tarnishes and fades. Go after one that’s gold eternally. Count on God’s Rule to prevail, take heart and gain strength. Run like a deer upon the highest mountains!

I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back. Philippians 3:14

The Road to Damascus

I have been a Christian since I was about 4 years old. I have grown up in a Christian home and have read my Bible quite a bit throughout the last 22 years. As I have grown and matured in my faith Paul has become one of my favorite characters within the Bible. I have always been so impacted by the way that he lived his life as a complete sacrifice for the Lord. My prayer throughout my study of Paul has always been that God would cause my life to reflect that same sacrifice and dedication. As I have continued to learn more about Paul, his theology and the reasoning behind his extreme transformation, I have seen that this life of dedication came from his simple and yet complexly powerful revelation of who Jesus was and what He had accomplished by dying on the cross and being raised from the dead. Of all the things to talk about when it comes to Paul, I cannot get away from the fact that everything he taught and lived for stemmed from the one moment where Christ was revealed to him.

The objective of this paper is to show why Paul’s experience on the road to Damascus was so powerful that it took Paul from persecuting those who followed Jesus to calling himself a slave of Christ Jesus himself. Paul’s life took a complete 180 degree turn after his vision of Jesus and I want to examine what Jesus revealed to him that was so impacting. I will start by showing how Paul’s background and upbringing hugely influenced his life and then was even used in a powerful way after meeting Jesus. I will show how the revelation that Paul received gave him no other option than to dedicate his life to the spreading of the gospel to all who would believe. First, I will explore who Paul was before he was confronted with the risen Lord.

A closer look at Scripture reveals a great deal about Paul’s upbringing:

Acts 21:39 – Paul is a Jew and also a citizen of Tarsus, which he describes as “no obscure city”.
Acts 22:28 – Paul was a Roman citizen. Though it was possible for people to purchase this citizenship for a large sum of money, Paul distinguishes that he did not have to purchase his Roman citizenship but had been born into it.
Acts 22:3 – Paul states that while he was born in Tarsus, he was brought up in Jerusalem at the feet of Gamaliel.
Acts 26:4-5 shows us that this upbringing was among the Pharisees, which he characterizes as the strictest party of the Jewish religion. Gamaliel, if it was the same Gamaliel mentioned in Acts 5:34 was the most prestigious rabbi of his time.

This was no small education that Paul had received.  This is communicated even further in the book of Philippians. In Phil. 3:5-6 Paul gives more insight into the history of his education as a Jew. Not only does he show that he was born into the tribe of Benjamin, but he was a Pharisee. The Pharisees were known as the “straitest sect” of the Jewish religion. Paul describes himself as the best of the best when it came to being a Jew. Each of these characteristics mentioned of Paul would have been significant in the Jewish religion. I will talk about why in a bit, but let’s first look at where Paul came from.

Tarsus, as Paul described it was “no obscure city”. Tarsus in fact, was the leading city of Fertile Plain of East Cilicia. It was a very prosperous place and having become a Roman province, enjoyed many privileges of being such, one of which was the exemption from imperial taxation. Those who were citizens of Tarsus were very dedicated to the study of culture, philosophy, liberal arts and education and learning as a whole. Though the students were mostly local and often left Tarsus to further their education, the entire city applied itself to education and could have been characterized as a “university city”. The prosperity of Tarsus was mainly due to the fact that it was located on the Fertile Plain. Tarsus was well known for its linen woven from flax that grew there and also from a substance called cilicium which was made from goat’s hair. We see in Acts 18:3 that Paul was a tentmaker. According to F.F. Bruce, tradesmen in Tarsus were excluded from citizenship because there had been a law put into place by Athenodorus that stated that 500 drachmae was required in order to obtain citizenship within Tarsus. If it is true that Paul was a citizen of Tarsus, as claimed in Acts 21:39, then it would also be safe to say that Paul came from a wealthy family, because they had enough money to buy their citizenship. But not only did Paul claim to be a citizen of Tarsus, he also claimed Roman citizenship, which he was born into and did not purchase (Acts 22:28). Roman citizenship was beneficial in many ways but most importantly it meant that a person was not able to be bound or to be put into prison without first having a trial and neither were they permitted to be scourged or whipped. Also, a Roman citizen had the right to appeal to Caesar. All of this is important in order to understand Paul’s status within society, but I believe his Jewish upbringing was most important to look at.

As I have already noted above, Paul makes claims to his Jewish upbringing in Philippians 3:4-6 where he states:

  “though I myself have reason for confidence in the flesh also. If anyone else thinks he has reason for confidence in the flesh, I have more: 5  circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; as to the law, a Pharisee; 6  as to zeal, a persecutor of the church; as to righteousness, under the law blameless. “[ESV]

From these verses we see that Paul was not only born a Jew but was of the tribe of Benjamin. This was obviously something significant because Paul also mentions it in Rom. 11:1. When Israel split into the northern and southern kingdoms, the tribe of Benjamin found itself in the southern kingdom of Judah. It was during this time that tribal identity was often lost, but there were the few that dedicated themselves to making sure that did not happen. These people became known as “the children of Benjamin”. This is probably the group that Paul descended from. Another thing that we see from these verses is that Paul was a “Hebrew of Hebrews”. Paul distinguishes himself clearly as a Hebrew and, from looking at Acts 6:1, it is shown that there was a distinction made during that time between Hellenists and Hebrews. Both were Jews, however Hellenized Jews were those who had been assimilated into Greek culture, spoke Greek , and even attended synagogues where Scriptures had been interpreted into Greek. Paul felt it was important to note that he was not a Hellenist because he had grown up around Hellenized Jews. Paul’s purpose in mentioning this was to show that he had the purest upbringing of Jewish culture and religion.

If all of that was not enough, he was also a Pharisee. Pharisees were known for their strict adherence to the Jewish Law. The name Pharisee actually came from the Hebrew word “parash” which means to separate. They had most likely come from the Hasidim who had fought along with the Maccabees in the revolt against Antiochus IV when he had tried to “Hellenize” the Jews. Out of this revolt came two groups of devout Jews, the Essenes and the Pharisees. The Essenes lived completely separate while the Pharisees remained active within the Jewish people, only separating themselves by their dedication to keeping the Jewish law in its entirety. They were most well-known for their strict adherence to the law in the areas of tithe and ritual purity since these areas had become less important to many other Jews. The Pharisees were very strict when it came to interpreting the law and knowing what it said on all matters (Acts 26:3).

The question that comes to mind is, “If all of this devotion to the study of the Word of God [being the OT Law] is true, then how could Paul’s mindset have been so contrary to that of God’s before meeting Christ on the road to Damascus?” For the answer it is necessary to look at the gospels and what Jesus had said to the Pharisees, and about them, before moving on with Paul:

Matt 23:13-15- “But woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you shut the kingdom of heaven in people’s faces. For you neither enter yourselves nor allow those who would enter to go in.” [ESV]
Matt 23:23-24 – “Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you tithe mint and dill and cumin, and have neglected the weightier matters of the law: justice and mercy and faithfulness. These you ought to have done, without neglecting the others.” [ESV]
Matt 23:25-26 –“Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you clean the outside of the cup and the plate, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence.  26 You blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and the plate, that the outside also may be clean.” [ESV]
Matt 23:27-28 – “Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you are like whitewashed tombs, which outwardly appear beautiful, but within are full of dead people’s bones and all uncleanness.  28 So you also outwardly appear righteous to others, but within you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness.”[ESV]
Luke 11:43-44 – “Woe to you Pharisees! For you love the best seat in the synagogues and greetings in the marketplaces.  44 Woe to you! For you are like unmarked graves, and people walk over them without knowing it.”[ESV]

It is clear from these passages that Jesus was more concerned about the condition of a person’s heart than their appearing to be perfect.

 On the outside the Pharisees appeared to have it all together but they were following the Law for all the wrong reasons. In Galatians 3:19, Paul comes to the conclusion that the purpose of the law was actually to highlight sin, thus showing man their need for a Savior. But how did Paul come to that conclusion when his life was so marked by the influence of the Pharisees and he had become as zealous as any of them, if not more, in his striving for religious perfection? In order to determine this, the events of Paul’s life leading up to his experience on the road to Damascus must be examined.

Beginning in Acts 6, there was a group of men, namely scribes and Pharisees, who had become outraged at the things that Stephen had been speaking. Stephen had been preaching that Jesus was in fact the Righteous One, the Messiah, and they had betrayed and murdered him (Acts 7:52). Paul [then called Saul] had been amongst those who were outraged by this teaching and he gave approval of Stephen’s execution by stoning (Acts 7:58-8:1). It was after this that Saul zealously persecuted the Christian church for what they were teaching about Jesus. It says that he was “ravaging the church, and entering house after house, he dragged off men and women and committed them to prison.” So what was Paul really upset about? Why was it so unacceptable for Jesus to be the Righteous One; the One who was to come; the Messiah? The Pharisees too were expecting a Messiah to come, but it was not going to be someone who was crucified. How could it have been when Deut.  21:23 clearly stated that a man hung on a tree was cursed by God? The Pharisaic understanding of how the Messiah would come and what he was coming to do was completely different than how Christ came and what he actually did.

The NT reveals what the expectation was of the Messiah’s coming and what they thought it meant for the nation of Israel. After the time of Daniel, “the Messiah” was a title that referred to a king that was prophesied to come. But, as the Jews continued to struggle against political rulers, the Messiah was also thought to be a political and military ruler who would come and establish his kingdom for the people. They believed that the Christ was going to come performing signs and wonders, but also that he would rescue his people and deliver them from their enemies, after which he would set up a kingdom and rule forever (John 7:31; John 12:34). Psalm 2 speaks of this Messianic King being “God’s son” and shows that God will give him rule over the nations. So for Paul, his expectation was of a physical kingdom that was going to be set up, where the Messiah would rule and reign forever. I can imagine then that there was a definite need for concern in Paul’s mind when Jesus was crucified on a cross yet people proclaimed He was the Messiah. It was completely contradictory to what the Scripture told him was going to happen when the Messiah came, not to mention that Jesus must have been cursed by God in order to have died that way. Paul saw the movement of people proclaiming Jesus as Messiah to be an extreme threat for the nation of Israel as he considered them to be “led astray”. He saw no other option than to put a stop to it in a permanent way. Thus it comes to Saul the Persecutor, who was determined to completely wipe out this belief in Jesus of Nazareth as the Messiah.

Now in Acts 8 it shows that Paul was “ravaging the church” and from Acts 9:1-2 we see that Paul, “still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord,” had gone to the high priest in order to obtain warrants of arrest for those who were followers of Christ in Damascus that he might bring them to Jerusalem to be imprisoned. And it was on this road to Damascus that Paul met the risen Lord.

Acts 9:3-21

Now as he went on his way, he approached Damascus, and suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. 4 And falling to the ground he heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me?”  5 And he said, “Who are you, Lord?” And he said, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting.  6 But rise and enter the city, and you will be told what you are to do.”  7  The men who were traveling with him stood speechless, hearing the voice but seeing no one. 8 Saul rose from the ground, and although his eyes were opened, he saw nothing. So they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. 9 And for three days he was without sight, and neither ate nor drank.

10 Now there was a disciple at Damascus named Ananias. The Lord said to him in a vision, “Ananias.” And he said, “Here I am, Lord.” 11 And the Lord said to him, “Rise and go to the street called Straight, and at the house of Judas look for a man of Tarsus named Saul, for behold, he is praying,  12 and he has seen in a vision a man named Ananias come in and lay his hands on him so that he might regain his sight.”  13 But Ananias answered, “Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much evil he has done to your saints at Jerusalem. 14 And here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call on your name.” 15 But the Lord said to him, “Go, for he is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before the Gentiles and kings and the children of Israel.  16 For I will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name.”  17 So Ananias departed and entered the house. And laying his hands on him he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus who appeared to you on the road by which you came has sent me so that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” 18 And immediately something like scales fell from his eyes, and he regained his sight. Then he rose and was baptized; 19 and taking food, he was strengthened.

 

For some days he was with the disciples at Damascus. 20 And immediately he proclaimed Jesus in the synagogues, saying, “He is the Son of God.” [ESV]

 

In the flash of a moment, everything changed for Paul.

Not only did he stop his persecution of the Christians, but he immediately began proclaiming Jesus as well. This is an extreme transformation. As a Pharisee who had grown up in a wealthy family of very devout Jews, Paul had it all. He had studied at the feet of the most prestigious Pharisee; he was leading the way for battle against this blasphemous movement of Christians; and he had climbed to the top of the ladder both politically and religiously. He was striving for religious perfection and he was well on his way to attaining it, until he met Jesus. In that moment, Paul received a revelation that was so profound for him that he was willing to leave all of his “accomplishments” behind and live a life completely dedicated to the One whom he had persecuted. So what exactly did this encounter mean to Paul and why did it show him that Jesus was indeed the Messiah?

Paul was now face to face with the resurrected Jesus.  It was not resurrection that Paul as a Pharisee would have had a problem with. In the OT, it is shown in many places that there was an understanding of life after death for those who were found righteous before God. (Ps. 49:15; Job 19:25-26; Isaiah 26:19; Hosea 13:14). There was a hope amongst the people of Israel that the righteous would meet God after death. But, Jesus’ appearing to Paul in His resurrected form changed everything for Paul. As I said before, the idea of resurrection was not something completely off base according to the Pharisees, because within the resurrection of the righteous there was an understanding that the time for God to fulfill His promises was upon them (Isaiah 26:19; Hosea 6:3; Daniel 12:2; Ezek. 37:9). But how could this be if Jesus was cursed by God? Paul was now faced with the reality of the resurrection which pointed Paul to Jesus’ true righteousness. The time for God to fulfill what was said in the OT was now! Jesus had appeared in his resurrected form and in the same way that Yahweh had appeared to those in the OT. Now what Paul was seeing was that Jesus was not only the Messiah but he was the cosmic Lord of the Universe as well. When Jesus told Paul that it was Him that Paul had been persecuting, this would have meant that those who believed in Him were now identified with Him. If that was true, then what Jesus had accomplished on the cross had changed everything. It had brought about the long expected day of salvation. As Herman Ridderbos says, “It is the ‘appearing of our Savior’ that is the proof of the great turning point of the times. For this reason the whole content of the mystery that has now been revealed can be qualified and summarized in the one word – Christ”. What Stephen had been proclaiming was true! The way Paul had been looking at the Messianic King was completely wrong. Not only that, but now everything he read in the OT had to be looked at through a different lens. Talk about a humbling experience!

For Paul, when the risen Christ appeared to him and said what he did, he realized that there was a paradigm shift. Suddenly there was a realization of what Jesus had really accomplished on that cross by taking our transgressions and how he was truly establishing His kingdom. It was not a physical kingdom as he and so many had thought, but a spiritual one and the rescue for the people of God was a spiritual rescue as well. He realized that it was always meant to be a resurrected Messiah that would fulfill the promises of God. Everything was falling into place now in a new way. It was like someone had given him a key to this massive filing cabinet where everything he had read in the OT now was put into the right place and was organized in a way that made complete sense. He had never looked at it this way before. And the way that God had chosen to go about showing Paul this was perfect in every detail. When God blinded him physically, it showed that he had been spiritually blind and that God was revealing spiritual truth, restoring his sight. This spiritual sight and understanding was something that all of his study and dedication to the Law did not give him. God was showing Paul that He is the one who reveals truth and that it is revealed at exactly the right time. Paul had thought he was on the right track. Reading through the NT I see more clearly how all things fell into place for Paul and that he was now able to look at the OT Scriptures through a completely new perspective of the resurrection.

Paul’s revelation can be seen more clearly in Romans 1:3-4 as he explains that Christ is the Son of God and descended from David. As I mentioned before, Psalm 2 says that the King Messiah is “God’s son”. This is evidence that Paul is now reading his OT with a new mindset. In Romans 4:25 is says, “[Jesus] was delivered up for our trespasses and raised for our justification”. Here Paul is using two passive verbs. In Greek these are two “dia” clauses. “He was put to death dia our transgressions” and “…was raised dia our justification”. In Isaiah 53 these same verbs are used (Isaiah 53:5, 10-11). Paul is now seeing Jesus as Isaiah’s suffering servant. It is through the resurrection that the Servant makes “his offspring” “righteous”. Jesus is the one who took our transgressions upon himself and died the death that was meant for us and through his resurrection we have been justified. Christ’s example of this humble servant can be seen in Phil. 2:5-11

5 Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,  6  who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, 7 but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. 8 And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. 9  Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, 10 so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. [ESV]

Jesus was the suffering servant spoken of in Isaiah. Paul is demonstrating the humility of Christ as the ultimate example for believers. This is evident when looking at the way in which Paul views himself in light of Christ’s example when he calls himself multiple times, “a servant of Christ Jesus”. Paul uses two different words for servant when he refers to himself as such in the NT. Paul uses the Greek word “duolos” frequently, which means slave. But in 1 Cor. 4:1 the Greek word used is “huperetes” which means under rower.

Slavery was widespread during that time.

They did not have any rights of their own and were permitted to do only what their masters asked of them. A slave was a thing, something to be owned and the only difference between a slave and other physical assets was that he could become free, but even then, only under certain circumstances. In Roman law the master could free their slave by paying a price for their redemption, but there were certain obligations between patron and freedman in this case. The patron was now responsible for providing for the well-being of this freedman and though the freedman now enjoyed the privileges of a free citizen of the Roman Empire, he was still bound to his master with some responsibilities. He may have worked a certain number of days of the week, month or year for his patron.

The Jewish law of a freed slave was much different than this. In the OT Law during the Year of Jubilee, which occurred in the seventh year, slaves were set free. This could happen on the terms of payment or any other term that the master saw as satisfactory. Manumission of slaves for the Jews was something that was final though, and if the master tried to reserve any rights over the slave thereafter it would make the transaction invalid.

Paul states in 1 Cor. 7:21-22 “Were you a slave when called? Do not be concerned about it. But if you can gain your freedom, avail yourself of the opportunity. For he who was called in the Lord as a slave is a freedman of the Lord. Likewise he who was free when called is a slave of Christ.” To Paul, Christ had purchased the freedom for all by paying the full redemption price. To those who had been slaves of men, that redemption meant they were free in the eyes of God to serve Jesus as Master and for those who had been free they had now been purchased by Him and were now to serve Him with their lives. So then, when Paul refers to himself as “huperetes” which meant under rower, what was he saying?

An under rower was a military position in the Roman empire. Under rowers were those that rowed in Roman warships at the very bottom level of the ship. There were usually three levels of rowers. This lowest of rowing decks sat about a foot above the water and was reserved for those slaves that had been captured by the Romans and were put to work for their army. They were usually chained to their seats and faced a captain who sat at the head of all of them, giving them strict orders that were to be obeyed promptly. This was a warship. There was no option for delay or for not following orders. This is how Paul saw himself! This was how he wanted others to see him, and his life really did demonstrate it.

For Paul, he saw no other option for his life after that experience on the road to Damascus. Paul saw it as a commissioning. As Christ appeared in all His glory before Paul’s very eyes, the way Yahweh had appeared to those called by him in the OT, Paul knew that there was a calling on his life from God. God had chosen Paul to be an instrument used to bring the gospel to the Gentiles and kings and the children of Israel and God was going to show him how much he would suffer (Acts 9:15-16). Paul’s life is marked by that reality as seen throughout his letters and life experiences in the NT. Paul saw himself as the under rower. He had been called by Yahweh! It was for this reason that Paul was able to say:

Five times I received at the hands of the Jews the forty lashes less one. 25 Three times I was beaten with rods. Once I was stoned. Three times I was shipwrecked; a night and a day I was adrift at sea; 26 on frequent journeys, in danger from rivers, danger from robbers, danger from my own people, danger from Gentiles, danger in the city, danger in the wilderness, danger at sea, danger from false brothers; 27  in toil and hardship, through many a sleepless night, in hunger and thirst, often without food, in cold and exposure. 2 Cor 11:24-28, [ESV]

And yet still be able to say after listing off his worldly accomplishments in Philippians 3:6-8:

But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8 Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— 10  that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead. Philip. 3:7-10 [ESV]

There was no looking back for Paul, only a daily deepening of the knowledge of the truth as he reflected on what he had studied of the OT now through a new lens. The zeal that he had had for the law was now simply transferred and strengthened for the sake of the gospel. He operated without fear in the things that the Lord asked of him. His life was marked by the humility of Christ’s example and the love Christ had expressed through his willingness to die on the cross for our transgressions. This same love flowed through Paul and caused his zeal to now drive him to love those who needed to know this truth. In that simple moment, Christ was revealed and a life was transformed. Paul’s transformation from Persecutor to Under Rower was one that changed history and I am so thankful.

What can we take away from all of this
as believers ourselves?

 For one, we can take away a deeper revelation of Christ’s death and resurrection. As followers of Christ we see from Paul what it means to live a life completely dedicated to Jesus. If we are to follow in Christ’s footsteps as His disciples then our lives should reflect the same dedication to the gospel as Paul’s did. Paul was not an incredible tool because of anything he did on his own. Paul was incredible because he had received a revelation of what God had done for us through Christ and he got it. It is important that we never allow the revelation of Christ’s death and resurrection to lose its power and impact in our lives. May it never become something that we take for granted. May we as well, dedicate ourselves to being under rowers in obedience to God for His glory. Amen.

Freedom

Freedom, we all love freedom but what does that actually mean? What does that actually look like? How do we define freedom? This is something the Lord has been showing me lately, what it actually means to be free.

So, first off, let me ask you a question. How do you define freedom? Or how would most people in the world define freedom? Being able to do WHATEVER you want, WHENEVER you want to. Not limitations, no laws, nobody telling me what I can or cannot do. Drink as much as I want, marry who I want, do what drugs I want, sleep with whoever I want, watch what I want. That is how I think most people would define freedom. BUT, lets take a look at Scripture and see what it says.

Galatians 5:1 “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.” So, according to Galatians, what does freedom look like, and what does slavery look like? Christ has set us freedom. So, true freedom is found in Christ and slavery. Now, in the context of Galatians slavery would probably have to do with the Law, going back to the law as a means of being justified. See in Galatians 1:6-9 that there are those who are preaching a different gospel than Paul presented to the Galatians.

Now, we have a problem. The world defines freedom one way, and the Bible another way. What do we believe? (right answer, the Bible!) We need to understand that Jesus has set us free. That in Christ, through Christ we GET TO walk in freedom, NOT have to. Do you get that? Because this was big for me to learn. I GET TO walk in freedom in Christ, not have to. I GET TO follow Christ, and allow him to be my Lord, NOT have to. True freedom is when CHRIST is lord of your life, when you have been crucified to him (Gal. 2:20), and now you allow Christ to live through you. THAT is true freedom.

Paul talks about this in a way of “who are you a slave to” in Romans 6:15-23. You are a slave to that which you obey, either to sin, or to righteousness. So, all these people who are running around saying that they are free, and Christians are in bondage because we HAVE to do what God tells us to do, this is NOT true, Biblically. Actually, the Bible flips that around and says the complete opposite. When Christ is Lord of your life, you are free. And when sin runs rampant in your life, you are a SLAVE to sin. You are not free, are a slave to your sinful desires.

What the Lord really showed me through all this is 2 things:

First, freedom is IN CHRIST. Christ has set me free. And when I die to Christ, THAT is true freedom. When Christ is Lord, THAT is true freedom.

Second, I GET to walk in that freedom, NOT have to. I should be SO excited to have the fruits of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22-24), to be patient, self-controlled. I should have an attitude that I GET to follow Christ, and I GET to die to my sinful desires everyday, NOT have to. Because for a while I lived with the mentality that everyone else was having all the fun, drinking, having sex, doing whatever they wanted to do. And I HAD TO follow Christ, it was like a chore. This should NEVER be the case. I GET to follow Christ, and allow him to live through me and allow him to be my Lord.

So remember, for freedom Christ has set us free. Christ has set us free.

Living for others, not ourselves

I had a thought today as I was having a quiet time with the Lord. I will give you the reference of what I was studying, explain to you what I was thinking of this text and lead you to what I think is a revelation I got. I was reading Romans 15:1-7 and the reason I was reading this was because I was feeling weak and I felt like I needed the strong to lift me up. Which is what Paul is talking about here, in Romans 14 he is talking about the weak and some problems they may have (with food, special days etc). Then in chapter 15 he is talking about the strong bearing with the weak, this is totally contrasted/connected to chapter 14.  There are the weak in chapter 14, and Paul says in 15:1 “We who are strong have an obligation to bear with the failings of the weak, and not to please ourselves.” We have an OBLIGATION – wow.  Not a question. If you feel you are strong, it is not about you, you are to “bear with the failings of the weak”. That is the amazing thing about Christianity, it is NOT about us. Probably the only religion in the world that things that way. So sorry, if you are a christian and think it is about you I would have to disagree with you, that is not what the Bible teaches.  It is NOT about us, it is about others. Christianity is a live-out religion, for others, not for ourselves. Sorry, a little sidetracked there. So I kept reading and was struck by this idea of living in harmony in v5, and how the “God of endurance and encouragement” is going to grant that to us.  But wait, even with this, it is not about ourselves. Lets read on. v6 “THAT together you may with one voice glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.” So WHY do we live in harmony? Paul connects this with glorifying God and Jesus with ONE voice. Again, not about us. Now, HOW can we do all this? HOW can we live in harmony and bear with the failings of the weak? Let me tell you. It is because God has done all this that we can. God first loved us, that is why we can love. Let me show you in the text here. v2-3 – We are to please our neighbor, build him up FOR Christ did not please himself. v4 – The Scriptures are giving us hope through “endurance and encouragement” v5 – God is described as the God of “endurance and encouragement” v7 – “Therefore, welcome one another AS Christ has welcomed you, FOR the glory of God” So, we can bear with the failings of the weak, please our neighbor, live in harmony, all these things BECAUSE GOD first did this. God showed us how. We can love because God first loved us. And it is all for HIS GLORY as well. Side note, John is saying the same thing as well.   John 4:19 “We love because he first loved us.” So, as I was studying this, this is what I thought to myself. You will act like that of which you worship. 

We love, serve one another, live in unity/harmony, bear with the failings of the weak, etc. BECAUSE God first did all this. He is whom we worship, and we act like that. Well, not all the time because we do have the sin nature. But this is WHY we can love, why we can serve, etc. It is not because we are so great and amazing, but it is because GOD is so great and amazing and HE FIRST LOVED US! When we did NOT deserve it (still don’t deserve it), when we beat him and nailed him to a tree, he loved us. He gave his life for us because he loved us. And now we can love, because he first loved us.
So, tell me if I am wrong, but I think this is true. You will act like that of which you worship. If you worship sex, you will act in that belief. If you worship money, you will act on that. I think whatever you worship, that is how you are going to live your life.
So, then the question is, what do you worship? Or who do you worship?

Leading by Interruption

Many people think the secret to good leadership is in controlling interruptions and staying focused. They believe it’s prioritizing the important from the urgent and so on. When I look at Jesus I am not convinced that the standard lines we hear regarding leadership are really hitting the mark. Jesus it seems, did not really worry about those things very much. He came to serve people. He prayed and let God determine the schedule and the priority. It was people and God’s will that drove his daily schedule and priorities. It was taking care of himself that always seemed to be on the back burner. It was time alone that he had to fight for. If it is even proper to use a term like “fight for” in the context of Jesus’ schedule.

He had submitted his life, and therefore his schedule to God from the beginning. Our trouble is that we still like to think that we are the ones in charge of our life. We think it is up to us to figure it all out, that it is up to us to control our schedule. I don’t think either of those things are real. They are delusions of the modern world.

God knows what we need. We need to trust that he will give us the rest we need, and he will – as we do his will.

Here is the rub though, are we doing God’s will in our pursuits? Or are we driven by ambition (or the lack thereof), the need for control, or even fear instead? Our fallen nature will often go to extremes to maintain some sort of control. Our old nature does not seem to care if it has to resort to religious efforts or secular pursuits as long as it can stay in control. The feeling of control makes us feel safe and powerful, but it is a deep and primal lie. God is God and we are not. The desire for control is a delusion that keeps us from being all that we were created to be. And trying to be what we are not is exhausting in the long run.

Step One- Let go of the need to be in control.
Step Two- Let God control our agenda.
  • His agenda will revolve around serving (loving) people.
  • His agenda will be kingdom centered.

Much of my exhaustion comes from fighting things that God may in fact be bringing into my life. Particularly if what he is bringing into my life are people.

There is such a thing as a time to walk away from people. We see Jesus do this often. So when do we walk? In my experience God will help us with this. The people we need to walk from, are those that are actually keeping us from the kingdom work. Jesus told the truth and all those that followed the truth followed him and he gave them more time. The people that would not listen to the truth, but rather wanted Jesus’ attention for other reasons, got nothing from Him. Sometimes this is hard for us, especially if we know the people really well, or if we are related to them. People that do not accept the truth can not be helped – no matter how much we would want to. When we come to an impasse with someone, where the conversation or the actions seem to be going nowhere because of unbelief it is time to move on. No amount of human energy or ingenuity can convert the unbelief of others into faith.

What about rest?

We need rest. I think this fear of complete exhaustion is one of the main reasons we miss so many blessings and opportunities in the kingdom. Logically, it does not make sense that God would want to completely exhaust us with the opportunities he gives us. Unfortunately, we often act as if this is true and these silly fears cause us to say no to God.  Sometimes we just need to say good-bye or good-night so that we can get some rest and be available and useful to others whom God may bring into our path.

Does God really intend to work us all to death if only we would listen to Him? Isn’t God the one who not only created the Sabbath, but also the one who took the first Sabbath and then later commanded us to follow His example? Our exhaustion does not come from God, it comes from our own desires which are constantly at war within ourselves and with God. If we love people and obey God, God will give us rest. Think of Psalm 23:2 “He leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul”

There is a work that brings true rest, as Jesus said: Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. (Matt 11:28)

A yoke is a device that harnesses an ox to a plow or other implement. Jesus is not setting us free from work but giving us a new job, a job that brings true rest. What is that new job? To answer this I want to use an unusual passage, it is Isaiah 28:12 and it is part of a longer rebuke of the leaders of God’s people. Here is the the cry of God’s heart as He is desperately trying to correct His people: “This is rest; give rest to the weary; and this is repose”; yet they would not hear. Their rest was supposed to be found in giving rest to the weary. But they would not hear it.

When Jesus says take my yoke upon you, he was saying “make my work yours”. And what is the work of Jesus? Salvation, healing, restoration – the work of Jesus is giving rest to those who need it. We will find rest as we help others find it.

This is beautifully consistent with the whole theme of Christianity. We are in Christ. Therefore, we are doing what he did and what he is still doing through us. We are the body of Christ. Therefore, we are the physical manifestation of Christ on the earth. We are the Jesus they can physically touch and physically see in the here and now.

We are told in John 7:38 that those who believe will have “rivers of living water” flowing out of their hearts and we are told that these out-flowing rivers are the Spirit of God. This is part of the ongoing paradox of the Christian life. We receive the Spirit of God, but that Spirit is a river that is just passing through us on it’s way to healing others.

We are healed as we heal others. Just as our rest is found in giving others rest. That same river heals all, as long as we allow it to flow out of us as God intended.

Our fallen nature often gets us thinking only of our need, but the Spirit was not given just to heal us individually it was given to heal all those that believe through Christ in us. To do this we need to let that river flow out of us, we must allow it to flow through us to others. We need to become true partners in the ministry of Christ in order to find the rest and healing that Jesus promises.

How do we apply this?

There are obviously many ways to apply this, so my first answer is to pray and ask God how you should respond to the people he brings into your life every day. However, I do have a couple practical suggestions as well.

Let God interrupt your schedule

Don’t fight against the people that God brings into your life. Read the New Testament again and see that most of the great stories of Jesus healing and teaching actually happened while Jesus was on his way to somewhere else. Jesus never said, well I would like to help but I am on my way to Jerusalem, I think I have an opening sometime next week, try me then.

Ask one more question

Many of us have a standard greeting in the the U.S. “How are you” the standard answer is of course “fine”. This may be polite but it is also quite empty. Ask one more question. I was afraid to do this for so long because I was convinced if I asked another question I would be there all day listening to some chronic victims long sad story. The truth however is actually quite different. The vast majority of my exchanges do not last more than a minute or two more, but they are transformed from a meaningless exchange to a meaningful conversation, even if it is short. A minute or two is a small price to pay to give Jesus a chance to work in someone’s life. It is a small price to pay for the chance to let the inexhaustible river of the Spirit flow through us to another person for whom Jesus died. Once in awhile it does take more than a minute or two, but these tend to be the best experiences not the worst ones as long as I remember the next point.

Make sure that you are asking for their benefit and not yours

This is the real secret in transforming these exchanges from a waste of time on the sidewalk to an actual encounter with Jesus through the overflowing of the Spirit of God.

Love is benefiting others at my expense. When you ask one more question make sure you have the other person’s benefit in mind. Maybe they are on their way to something important and have no time to talk to you, if you are thinking of their benefit you will let them go. The fact that you stopped and took time for them will not go unnoticed.

Making their benefit the motivation of your questions will also protect you from the trap of gossip. If we are truly looking to their benefit, we will not pry for information to satisfy our own curiosity nor will we try to take the Spirit’s role in their life though our self centered and self serving desires for control and significance.

Taking on the yoke of Jesus is to go where he says and do what he does. It is his yoke and not our yoke of ambition, and fear. We are not in this yoke alone, it is his yoke. We are in him and let’s be honest he is the one that is actually doing all the real work.

Let God lead you even in the interruptions and you will find rest just as Jesus promises. May it never be said of us.

“This is rest; give rest to the weary; and this is repose”; yet they would not hear.

 

The Importance of Sound Doctrine

Titus 2:1 “But as for you teach what accords with sound doctrine.”

What is “sound doctrine”? Why did Paul stress the importance of teaching and holding to “sound doctrine” in so many of his letters? Paul knew the importance of the Word of God and the fact that “all scripture is breathed out by God” and Paul knew that the truth of God should never be altered, even in the smallest way. Paul continually warned churches about false teachers and those who taught only to gain riches and fame for themselves. These false teachers said what people wanted to hear and what sounded good. Paul taught the unfiltered truth from God, which can be difficult to hear at times but is something that refines, molds and builds character to be more like Jesus. Paul stressed sound doctrine in his writings because he knew that the truth of sound doctrine was so powerful that it could transform lives and give hope to humanity. Paul was also very careful to make sure others never watered down the power of God and his amazing character. The false teachers during Paul’s day were regularly trying to alter the truth of God, which ultimately affected how the nature and character of God was communicated and led many to lose sight of God’s hope for mankind. Looking back over the writings of Paul from thousands of years ago, what does this mean for us today? Has his emphasis on teaching sound doctrine changed? Short answer: No, the message and truth of what Paul was saying two thousand years ago about teaching sound doctrine has not changed in the slightest. Why? Because we still have people today trying to alter the truth of God just as they did in Paul’s day. It is vital for believers today to read and study the word of God so that we know what God has communicated about his nature and character.

The Bible is the sound doctrine that Paul fought so hard to defend and we must train ourselves to know it cover to cover so that our faith will be built on truth alone, and also to help teach those who might not understand it yet. We must take Paul’s message of holding to and teaching sound doctrine very seriously, because he lived and died for it. The Truth in the Bible is the very breath of God. God’s Word tells us about who he is, his character, and how he wants his people to live, so why would we want this message to get skewed? Why wouldn’t we do everything we can to protect and teach what is sound doctrine?

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Whatever you have learned and received and heard and seen in me – practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:8-9

Fearing God

I’m not afraid of God.

So why are Christians commanded to “fear the Lord”?

God is my Father, he is loving and generous and kind beyond comparison and far more than I deserve. There is nothing about that to be afraid of. And yet all through the Bible we see references to the fear of the Lord (Proverbs 1:7, Ecc 12:13, Luke 1:50, etc). That can be a hard thing to pinpoint a definition to. The more I read the Scriptures, the more I start to think that maybe it’s not God we’re supposed to be afraid of. As I’m growing in my relationship with God and walking through the process of sanctification, I realize more and more the weight of my sin. It’s like, the more I realize how good and lovely and perfect and holy God is, the more I realize how grossly inadequate I am. I’ve come to this place in my life where the knowledge of my sin and the destruction that it brings to my relationship with God terrifies me. It’s not my Savior that I’m fearful of, but it’s the idea of being without him that scares me. Now, I know I’m saved and I don’t question losing my salvation, but as God reveals his character to me, I understand more deeply how much I need him.

The reason I think we need the “fear of the Lord” is because all too often we don’t see the problem with our sin. I don’t see the problem with my sin. I become complacent. I start to think that I’m doing okay, and that’s when I know I’m really bad. Once I heard it stated that the sin we most defend is the one we should be most worried about – and I can attest to that from personal experience. So often I catch myself thinking that I’m fine, I’m doing ok, I’m not that prideful, I’m not that selfish, so on and so forth. And it’s in those times that I find myself the most susceptible to sin and the farthest away from God.

In Exodus we see the nation Israel stuck in slavery to Egypt. There was nothing they could do to get themselves out of it, and it was only by God’s great power and mercy that they were delivered. They realized that they couldn’t do life without God, they needed him desperately (and not just for deliverance from slavery, but for everyday life – such as getting manna from heaven when there was no food in the wilderness). There’s no room for complacency or self-sufficiency when you’re stranded in the wilderness for 40 years with no food. Israel was to be a nation completely dependent on God as their Creator, Savior, Redeemer, and Provider. In Exodus 20, Moses is given the 10 Commandments for Israel to follow whole-heartedly. This wasn’t just a bunch of rules, but God’s way of allowing his people to be close to him. They shouldn’t kill, they shouldn’t steal, they shouldn’t lie, etc, because those things would separate them from him.

“[…] if you will indeed obey my voice and keep my covenant, you shall be my treasured possession among all peoples, for all the earth is mine; and you shall be to me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation (Exodus 19:5-6).

Still today Christians are called to be set apart from the world and to fear God. I do not think that we are supposed to be literally scared of God, but I do think we should seriously consider the consequences of not being with him. Romans 6:23 says that “the wages of sin is death” – that’s what our sin does to us, it kills us – “[…]BUT the free gift of God is eternal life in Jesus Christ”. Our choice to have a relationship with Jesus will save our lives, but it will also require that we walk away from our old lifestyles and serve him whole-heartedly. Understanding the fear of the Lord doesn’t just serve to make us moral, upright, righteous people while we’re on earth. It allows us to have a real relationship with God (beginning right now), one that continues on into eternity and saves us from ourselves, in order that we can spend eternity with our Creator, Father, and Friend.

“Moses said to the people, ‘Do not fear, for God has come to test you, that the fear of him may be before you, that you may not sin”’ (Exodus 20:20).

The fear of the Lord causes us to run from sin, and draws us closer to God. Therefore, fear sin in a way that makes you flee from it, and cling to God, who loves us and gave his life for us.

Spiritual Formation For Extraverts

I watched my friends wander by the lake, sitting with their backs to the trees, lying on the grass, looking up at the sky. Most had serene, angelic looks on their faces. I, however, wanted to explode.

Our leadership team was at a spiritual retreat, working on our own “spiritual formation”. There are many definitions of this concept, but most of them involve three ideas:

  • the work of changing the inner part of who we are
  • the process of conforming that inner being to look like Jesus
  • the outflow of this is to serve others.

We were spending the day in silence. We were encouraged to meditate, walk, read, think, prayanything but talk. As far as I could tell, I was the only one about to have a fatal attack of the jitters (I later learned I was not the only one). I cannot go more than about an hour without wanting someone to talk to. I am an unashamed extravert. That means I can only live inside my head for a little while before I have to externalize my thoughts and interact with others. If I go too long without externalizing my thoughts to another person, I start to get morose, paranoid and even depressed. I need the rest of the world to help me keep my proper bearings.

When we gathered the twenty people together, we shared our experiences. I wanted to externalize my anguish, but I could quickly tell it would have gone against the stream. Several people were telling how this was a refreshing, renewing experience; they wanted to do this on a regular basis. I listened to their descriptions and decided I needed to get a deeper life with God before attempting this again. In the years since, I have certainly tried to spend hours in silence. I can do it, but I leave with no less anxiety and muddled head than I did years ago. I have also read many books on the subject of spiritual formation. These books fall into certain categories: Meditation, silence, Prayer, Scripture Reading, Listening to God, Confession of sins. The books are all saying things I completely agree with and try to practice. I have to say I do well at prayer, reading the Bible, listening to God. But recently, I noticed something about the practices of spiritual formation and the books that advocate these practices: They are written by introverts and are primarily designed for introverts. I have said this to many people and rarely do I find someone who disagrees with me.

Just as I have been critical of authors who write on outreach, evangelism and social justice from a strictly extravert point of view, so now I want to take to task those who neglect the extravert when it comes to Spiritual Formation. First, some definitions. I define an extravert in the classic Jungian framework: a person who gains energy by being around other people, who can think and feel more clearly if they use those thoughts and feelings to interact with others and who is not as comfortable living on the inside of themselves. An introvert is the opposite: Someone who gains energy by periodically getting alone, who can think more clearly and feel more confidently when by themselves or in a quiet place and who are not comfortable externalizing their life in front of others.

So, how can an extravert focus on the inner part of who they are when they are much more proficient in externalizing their thoughts and feelings?

For several years, I taught short seminars on spiritual formation for church planters. Generally, Church Planters are the entrepreneurs of church leaders. In order to get a church going from scratch, it takes people who are multi-relational, outgoing and interactive. Introverts can plant churches, but they have to take a more organic, one-on-one approach. Extraverts often get a church off the ground faster with more energy. Therefore, when I taught this course to extraverts, I noticed they were not terribly interested. I don’t blame them. I had approached the subject as if all of us were comfortable with reflecting deeply within. I now realize that is not how it works. An extravert will never be able to grow internally if they take an introvert’s approach. After getting polite but mundane response to my seminar, I revamped it with the extravert in mind. The first time I presented my Extraverted Version of Spiritual Formation, I witnessed a dramatic transformation. These church planters engaged immediately in the concepts. Even now, several years later, these church leaders come up and mention that seminar as foundational in their understanding of spiritual formation.

Here are the basic elements that form the fabric of a dynamic spiritual formation process for Extraverts:

  1. An extravert needs to have more times devoted to spiritual formation than an introvert, but they must be of much shorter duration. Rarely can an extravert concentrate on any inner discipline for more than a half hour.
  2. They need to have people in their life they can bounce ideas, decisions, thoughts and reflections off. These people must be instructed to know their role is to interact –  they don’t have to agree or disagree on principle. It actually works better if extraverts can have several other extraverts they speak to every week and possibly every day about the spiritual truths they are learning.
  3. An extravert should seek to pass on what they are learning through mentoring, teaching, writing or music as soon as possible after coming to an understanding of a new truth.
  4. Every truth has a corresponding action associated with it. An extravert should learn they must do something with what they are becoming and learning and not just accept new ideas as philosophical concepts.
  5. An extravert desperately needs to have safe people they can talk with concerning the things they want to eliminate from their lives. These people should not be judgmental in nature, but neither can they be soft. They must challenge the extravert to new patterns of living based on the way God is changing them on the inside.

I am researching these things and may develop this teaching into a series of articles. At the very least, these five principles can change an extravert from the core outward. For instance, let’s talk about intercessory prayer. It is too difficult for me to spend hours praying on my own. However, if I can gather two or three other people to join me in prayer, the things Holy Spirit says to me often blends beautifully with what the others are praying. What they say often jibes perfectly with my thoughts and propels me into a new thought pattern altogether. If I sat for two hours trying to pray for someone, I would out-think myself and second guess my inner thoughts. But as soon as they come out of my mouth, I am often surprised at what I just prayed. In this regard, it is helpful when I am alone to pray out loud. Even if no one else is there, I can externalize my thoughts and listen to them as if someone else was praying. It helps.

Stay tuned…I am forming these thoughts as I grow.

Christmas Devotionals

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Why are people so eager to be done with Christmas? The frenzy now begins in October with Christmas decorations showing up in stores. Then by January 1st people are done with it. Before the new year rings in out go the trees and down go the lights. Why canʼt Christmas spill into the New Year? In my house the tree is still up and stately. The snowflake lights are still on the front porch and the deck lights still glow. The manger scene is still in tack and the cards are on display. I need Christmas to usher in the New Year.

Christmas is about beginnings not something to pack up and put away. As a child we never decorated our tree until Christmas Eve. We all decorated the tree and my Dad would sit in his chair and open mounds of Christmas cards that he brought home from work. The evening ended with church or the next morning we went to church. Church was alway in the picture. I grew up memorizing the words to Christmas Carols listening to them on my 45 record player.

Our tree stayed up until January 6 – Epiphany. This date on the church calendar marks the arrival of the Kings, the Wise Men. It was at the Epiphany service that we had candles. We were allowed to keep the candles. No turning them in at the end of the service because we were to take the light into the world. We kept our candles lit even as we drove home in a car without seat belts. Four Kids with lighted candles. The goal to take the light into our house. We usually achieved our goal but mostly because we had a brave mother who delighted in the Lord. So today as everyone is being done with Christmas I have let it usher in the New Year. I need itʼs light, its message. I need the person it honors. I need the story to take me forward.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The Epiphany, or the manifestation of the Christ to the Gentiles. This is the statement about the event in the church calendar in the Episcopal Prayer book. This is such an interesting celebration especially to me as a missionary. It marks the visit of the Gentiles to find the baby Jesus. I just noticed something a few days ago that in the Gospel of Matthew in the story about the wise men. I noticed that the magi who came from the East said that they wanted to know where the King of the Jews was because they had come to WORSHIP him. It is the worship part that struck me. They actually said all this to King Herod! So they were saying that Herod the half breed was not the king of the Jews. Yet for this new king the Magi were prepared to worship. WOW. Not homage or recognition but worship. And that is exactly what they did when they found him.

So these are the first Gentiles and maybe the first humans to actually WORSHIP Jesus. He is truly “ Good new for all peoples” as the angels proclaimed to the shepherds. Matthew 2:1-12.